Tuesday, January 16, 2018

God is with me.

These things stood out to me when I was reading these verses- matthew 14:30-32

30 But when he saw [the effects of] the wind, he was frightened, and he began to sink, and he cried out, “Lord, save me!” 31 Immediately Jesus extended His hand and caught him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you [a]doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased.

-#1- He looked at his circumstances therefore he was afraid.
When I am focused on my problems, they will appear to be bigger than God. I will keep my focus on God and not the effects of my problems.
#2- As he was sinking, he cried out to be saved. 
First, do I wait until my problems/life is a mess before calling out to God. Or am I daily communicating with Him before trouble arises? What do I do when I'm sinking- is God my last resort?
#3- Immediately God reached out and reached out his hand to Peter. 
How long did God wait to answer Peter's cries? Immediately!!! It may feel like I'm alone when I'm in the midst of a storm (that's a lie!) It may feel like God's not answering me (that's a lie!) I can know with confidence that he has already answered. He does not hesitate. He has reached out to me. 
#4- and when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 
THIS verse stood out the most.  
It was only after they got into the boat, the wind ceased. This means that while Peter and Jesus walked back to the boat the storm was STILL raging. But he WASN'T alone. And I can know that even during the midst of a storm, God is always with me. 

Thursday, January 11, 2018

January 15, 2003 note

I came across something I wrote that was labeled January 15, 2003. And wanted to share it here.

It feels like everyone is moving.
Walking in one continuous direction-
Yet here I am standing still
In one place and in doing so
I am making others stumble
Around me- for I am not moving with them
In the flow of things
And things are going too fast
And I fear I cannot keep up
With this new pace.
And so I stand and
The army goes before me
Around me, through me it seems at times.
Until I am alone once again.
And I must fight my battle alone
It seems all too overwhelming
Fear rushes over me as I try to shake it off
It pours over me. It drenches me wet
Until I am left standing covered in water over my head
It's deep. It drowns me. And then a thought
Comes to me- and I reach down
Way down on my knees. I grope around in
Darkness until I find it- the plug.
And I pull- but the suction is so strong.
At first nothing happens. I pull again-
The drain plug loosens and the fear is slowly, slowly going down the drain.
And I'm screaming
Away! Away from me fear!
And I'm calling out to Jesus-
Deliver me! Deliver me from fear!
And this gush of wind blows forth
Air that warms my soul
The cold drafty feeling is gone
And I look up to see- I'm surrounded
By the army
the army that I thought had left-
They were here on their knees- lifting me up in prayer
And so I kneel, I join with them
And together we stand, hand in hand
Marching on to victory!
-GTG (I used to sign all my writings with this- and it meant Glory to God)

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Dog bones

I've been having a blast making dog bones out of t-shirts.
 I'm selling them for $5 each if anyone is interested. The money will be donated to the Costa Rica trip as well. I plan to put some in the Etsy shop soon!

They come in four sizes. Send me a pm if you're interested in some!

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

C.R. ?

I wanted a way to be able to raise money for a mission trip that was mentioned at church- that the youth were taking this summer. With my job coming to an end, I knew I needed to find another way to make some extra money.
Since I was already reopening my Etsy shop, I decided to create a special section called C.R. (Costa Rica trip) and donate the proceeds from the sales to their trip. All of the money except Etsy and shipping fees will be donated. If you are local to my area and planning to pick up your purchase, I will refund you the shipping charges. Just leave me a note when purchasing the item(s) so that I'll know. This fundraiser will be going on until June when they leave for their trip. I will likely have another fundraiser going after that, but will change the section name.

Friday, December 22, 2017


I've decided to re-open my Etsy shop after all the encouragement people have given me.

I'm looking forward to adding more items weekly.

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Blessing bags completed.

The first batch of blessing bags have been completed.

Here are the last of them.

Next challenge is to make 25 more in a Christmas print to donate to another group in need. Pictures to share soon!

Flip my attitude.

I know first hand what happens when you let a negative thought dwell in your mind and let it take over your life. I did this for years. What woke me up to this destructive pattern was coming out of a slump of depression in September/October, I realized how important it was to take every thought captive. And let me tell you when the thoughts came pouring in as they did every day, I found it utterly exhausting to take them captive. There were days and nights that I wanted to give up.

It would have been so much easier to let them just take control and do what I'd always done. Do what I was used to doing, what was comfortable, what was easy. Dwell on them.

Thankfully, I have a supportive husband who is always reminding me to see the good in everything. To stop feeding the negative wolf and to feed the right wolf.

I  got to thinking about this topic, because I had challenges this week that normally would have broke me. Instead, they helped strengthen me and gave me PLENTY of opportunity to take my thoughts captive.

When the thoughts would enter my mind, the first thing I would do is recognize them and immediately cast them out. There are many ways to do this, but I will share three things that worked for me and are still working for me.

1. Laughter. Laughing at funny shows and video clips has helped tremendously at keeping my depression, fear, and anxiety away. I'm amazed at how laughter helps so much. Feeling down, watch something funny and start laughing your head off! The more you laugh the better you'll feel.
 "A merry heart does good like a medicine."

2. Scriptures. Whatever problem I was thinking about, I took my thoughts captive by going to the scriptures and finding a verse that spoke to me about the subject. I read different versions to get a better understanding. I meditated on them by thinking of the verse instead of the problem I was facing. I like the Youversion Bible app. I just found out about it recently. (another post about it later) I also subscribed to several of their bible plans. When I was a kid growing up, I loved the idea of sticker charts. (my parents weren't really into that) I think that's why I like the Youversion bible app. I'm just a kid at heart. :-) I like to see my progress.

3. Journaling. Writing is so therapeutic for me. It helps me to get my thoughts on paper. I have a journal I keep specific to writing about my social anxiety I deal with. It has helped me so much to be able to go back and read about particular days and what helped me get through them. Find a pretty notebook and start writing.

I've learned that taking my thoughts captive isn't a one time thing that I do. It's a new part of my life, what I do every moment of every day, but the more I do it, the easier it becomes. It's no longer exhausting to take my thoughts captive. The more I think good thoughts, the more I see the good in a situation. That doesn't mean that my life is perfect and bad things don't happen, but my perspective on how I see things has changed.

Here's a cheesy song to end with. It was from one of the bible plans I subscribed to.

God is with me.

These things stood out to me when I was reading these verses- matthew 14:30-32 30 But when he saw [the effects of] the wind, he was fri...